Baaa Humbug?

I wish I had something sweet or significant to say. I have a hard time in this season. I don't know why. I hate Mia not being here. Bella was allowed by the other parent in this family to go to Dallas for Xmas. As if that would be okay with me. I have been a mess. I wish God would just transport me to the finished product of my heart without having to fumble through being a better person. I am impatient with the process of my heart today. I do not feel good. I know I am not the only one. God I just pray that you would lift the heaviness off of those hearts including mine.